Ok, so now that all my assorted venting is over from this morning (THANKFULLY!), I feel pretty good now. Wow. I am actually listening to music tonight, something I haven't done in what seems like ages! It has been a good day listening to stuff....earlier it was Led Zeppelin, then the two recent CD's from Carlos Santana, and now Melissa Etheridge...I adore her, and always have...brave soul that she is now that she is battling breast cancer. I always admired and respected her. From day one.

Dream basically told me not to do too much today and to try to relax. I have no clue on how to do that, really. Once I am on this runaway train called my job and trying to do everything at once it is hard for me to stop....I keep going and going and going...until I start getting mean, and edgy and frantic...so though I have done SOME things today, I am in my grrrroooove head, and happily singing along, OFF KEY THANK YOU, to the music.

Wow. I really should do this more often. Hmmmm, maybe I should start painting and drawing again,too. Hmmmm....are we breaking free there, miss? Maybe we are, she thinks, maybe we are. Wow. Sitting here just writing and listening...how freeing...how very fulfilling for me at a time when I feel exhausted and far too stressed...hmmmmmmmmmmm...maybe I should do this.. wow...such an easy thing to do, but how far I have gotten away from it...no negative thoughts, just reflective...right now I feel like me for the first time in ages.  

Music has always been my life, although I couldn't play a damn instrument for real if you asked me to. Oh yes, I had to play an instrument in junior high school, but I sucked. I played the viola and never could quite get it...I was someone who painted and drew, and music was just not something I did well, unfortunately. Music and art is in my family though --I come from a long line of cellists, violinists and sculptors, and music has always carried me through during the toughest of times....

......as a teenager it was Santana, and Zeppelin, and the Beatles of course, and Janis Joplin, and Cream, then Derek and the Dominos (Layla, my favorite), Crosby, Stills and Nash, and then Young and the Doors...in college it was Aretha, and the Disco groups, Joni Mitchell, Cat Stevens, and Jackson Browne - I wrote all of my college papers listening to him all night long while I typed and smoked, and Clapton, and then Graham Nash and Jessie Colin Young...later, Fleetwood Mac, Michael Jackson, Luther Vandross, and Stevie Nicks when she went out on her own..later still it was U2 , No Doubt, The Calling, Outcast..I could go on...and on..

I feel good for a change. Restored and calm.

What a lovely gift.....